Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Fear of the Unknown

Joshua's CT scan couldn't have gone better. After some serious bribing he laid on the table without being sedated and did SO well. As we walked into the hospital he was baby talking with me, wanting to be held. He said he was scared. Can't blame him, so was I! I hate how familiar I am with that place. His ENT and craniofacial doctor and other doctors we have seen along this journey are right across from the hospital so we've just plain old been there too many times.

But this time we walked out just plain old happy and grateful. I was prepared to spend an obscene amout of money on him for doing so well. Probably just as much out of feeling sorry for him as being proud of him for pulling it together enough to lay still. I kept telling him it was like a Star Wars spaceship and it was SO cool! Fortunately he chose a $25 toy at the store because the way I saw it was even if we spent $100 it was still cheaper than paying for anesthia.

This is an online devotional I read today that was a source of encouragement and conviction from God's Word. You see I do hate all the unknowns in life but I am learning to rest in the One who knows!

Then you will know which way to go, since you have never been this way before.”
Joshua 3:4a

Do you ever fear the unknown? Perhaps it’s your health or the uncertainty of your future. Maybe it’s the decisions your children will make about following God or following their peers. Fearing the unknown can cause us to spend precious energy anticipating the worst-case scenario. There are two problems with this type of fear:


• The future is not here.


• The future is not ours.


While the future may be out of our hands, it is not out of the hands of our faithful trustworthy God. When we face a worrisome unknown situation, we can look to Joshua as an example of how to trust God in the face of uncertainty.


It’s recorded in the first chapter of Joshua that before Moses died, God passed the baton of leadership to Joshua. The Israelites had been wandering in the desert for 40 years under the guidance of Moses. Now, their journey was almost over. Just beyond the Jordan River was their promised land — the land that God had guaranteed to Abraham and his descendants.


Upon reaching the Jordan River, Joshua and the Israelites set up camp by the stream and awaited God’s direction. Much like their meeting with the Red Sea, God had to make a way for them to cross over the river. On the third day, God told the officers to instruct the people that when they saw the Ark of the Covenant (where God’s Presence abided) to follow it because they had “never passed this way before” (Joshua 3:4). In essence, God was saying: Follow Me and I’ll see you through this unknown territory.


That’s not all. The people were instructed on how closely they should follow the ark. Without this instruction, the people would have crowded the ark and God wanted every person to be able to see His presence faithfully leading them through the unknown valley. What greater encouragement could they have than this, that the Lord was their God, a God who was with them?


You see, friend, the Lord understands our fear of the unknown. He realizes that you may be in a situation that you’ve never passed through before and you’re afraid. It may be the first time you’ve been without employment. Maybe you’ve just been diagnosed with an illness or your child is in rebellion. You’ve never been down this road before and you don’t know which way to go or what to do. God will guide the way.


Joshua’s life was unpredictable and full of unknowns much like yours and mine. Yet, he successfully resisted fear by keeping his focus on God rather than the events surrounding him. Just as God guided the Israelites through unknown territory, He will guide you and me, too.


As He promises in Isaiah 43, when we come to a place we’ve never passed through before, God is always present to help us.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior” (v.2-3a, NIV).


Even though the children of Israel were not told how they would pass over the river, the people went forth in faith. We too can move forward in faith sharing in the promised presence of God leading the way through our unknown circumstances.


Dear Lord, thank You for Your promised presence. It comforts my heart to know that I am not alone. Lead me, Lord, through the unknowns in my life. Make Your path clear and I will follow it. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

1 comment:

The Gang's Momma! said...

Yay for unsedated CT scans!!! Yay for brave little guys!!! And even tho you hate how familiar you are with your hospital, YAY for docs and nurses who work with you on all that stuff.

Just came home from a three hour visit with our ENT and Audiologist, for Li'l E's 6 month check and for the beginnings of the conversations about FM systems for school, soft bands processors, and BAHAs... My brain hurts from all that I learned and all I have to process. Nothing bad and nothing emergent or crisis, in fact, it was all quite good and positive going forward. Just a LOT of stuff. Will be blogging out my processing in teh coming days.

Also just read that you are adopting again! Congrats. So happy for you. Can't wait to follow along.